A lot of people are afraid to be who they really are. For some reason, at least in the American society, there is this pressure to “fit in”. But why? I can definitely say that I am probably the oddball of my family. I am the only one who moved away, I have never really grown up, at least not by what we call normal standards. The way I choose to live is probably more what people wish they could live like instead of how they actually live. I know that sounds like arrogance but I am talking about the freedom I allow myself to have from the “norm” and if I didn’t live my life the way I do I would probably go crazy.
I’m sure some people find security in having a normal job with set hours and weekends off. I feel trapped when I have a job like that. I like working, of course my work is always based on what I love to do. I love music, photography, writing and carpentry. There are days when I will do all of these things in the span of a 24 hour period. It’s just what I do. Today, I was working on top of a 40 foot roof, this afternoon, I am shooting headshots for an actress. Tonight I might just play my guitar for a little while and I’m writing this blog now. It’s all about balance.
I am who I am. I’ve tried to play by society’s rules but I always fail. It is not in the cards for me to have a normal life. And I’m okay with that. I may never be rich, I may never do a lot of things. But one thing I know for sure, I have been living a life I am personally proud of so far. And to be honest, I am fine with that. I will continue on doing what I do for as long as possible. From taking photos to woodworking to whatever inspires me next, this is my path and I am taking it!